I'm not sure if this was the universe giving me a sign...but I had spent an hour working on a long overdue update and post a few weeks back, only to have my computer freeze at literally the last word. I operated under the assumption that the draft had been auto-saved since that's how the Wix platform works, but of course, it didn't. This was the third time this had happened to me on different social accounts...maybe someone was trying to shut me up? Anyways, five weeks and tons of madness later: obviously I've been absent for a minute. With the holidays, other family matters, the world such as it is, an almost 4 month-long car debacle, this new life catching up with me, and honestly, just being generally discouraged, I decided it was time to step away and get my head straight and my heart right.
I knew it would take time to get this whole thing up and running, I knew it would be a lot of work, and I knew the numbers would ebb and flow for readers and traffic. I just didn't think it would diminish to what it has. For those few of you who faithfully check-in (yes, if you accept the cookies I see you come in) I appreciate you more than words can say. You keep me motivated and remind me why I do this. But I had thought it would take off little by little and eventually become a little something extra to help support my family.
It hasn't, and after coming to terms with that I'm ok. If I'm being perfectly open and honest here, I owe a lot of that acceptance to Matthew McConaughey's book "Green Lights" which I've been reading. If you haven't read it, do it, and do it now! If you really want the full experience get the audible that he himself narrates, it's a great experience, and moreover, it's a great book. His experiences and perspectives have yet to disappoint me, and his unique way of looking at life's moments and choosing to accept them as stops, detours, or signs to trail blaze ahead (all of which are always destined and meant to be) has given me the fresh perspective I needed.
This shift in thinking and the reality of things also helped motivate me to find a new part-time work-from-home job I can do with Griffin as he is, and I simultaneously stumbled into a freelance writing contract that has become perhaps the start of a new career or at least solid side hustle. I also came across this great website called Listiller which provides free access to tons of writing gigs on a daily basis, and I am hoping to grow through that as well.
So it's been crazy and I've not been able to be as intentional with this blog of late as I would like to be. But, I'm hoping as things continue to settle into a new normal and get back to being in a more peaceful place, I will be able to get back on here more frequently and begin writing more regularly again. Until then, thank you to you faithful few for keeping me motivated and reminding me of the reason why I started this all in the first place: to share Griffin's and our story and give hope to others. I'm getting settled, as Matthew suggests I'm "getting relative", and turning to the next page.
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