Dear Jeremy,
How do I thank you for the past week and a half? Really, for the past 14 years...
I have not been myself lately; I have not been hopeful or happy or optimistic. I have been hanging on by a thread for the past week and a half, trying to do everything but deal with the current situation with our youngest son. I have felt broken and adrift, felt the full weight of every moment; felt like I could not carry anymore for even a single moment.
But you pick up the pieces and you carry on.
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. - Ephesians 4:2
You allow me to borrow your faith when my own fails me.
You swoop in when I need a break, and you are patient and strong.
You see the bright side when the shadows swallow me whole.
You are encouraging and hopeful when I am negative and despairing.
You keep smiling and fearlessly facing every day when I would crawl in a hole of self-pity.
You can plan and anticipate when I would seemingly try to make time stop by the sheer force of denial and avoid any hard decisions.
You bravely voice the hard topics and questions when I cannot bring myself to utter a single word of them.
You are always all the things when I cannot be them, and I am so grateful that you are my partner in this.
Not that our life has ever gone as planned or been the easiest path, but I think it is still fair to say we never in our wildest dreams would have thought we would be handed this. But we manage to stick together through it all, in large part, because oftentimes you can see the other side so much better than I can.
So thank you for being my other, better half; for being my partner and my person. Thank you for our two beautiful and wonderous boys. Thank you for the joy, laughter, and hope you bring into my life. Thank you for making life so big, fun, and a constant adventure. Thank you for being you and sharing yourself and your life with me.
I love you!
Yours for always,
Jess
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